RIP, Chip.

We had to say goodbye to our beloved dog Chip this week. He was 10 1/2 but suffered from kidney disease that also wound up causing a heart murmur, anemia and high blood pressure. It was hard to see my kids’ reaction to this as they had convinced me to get the dogs in the first place, complete with a written contract listing out reasons why they needed a dog (or two) and how they were going to take care of them. I had resisted it because I didn’t want this day to come when we would have to say our goodbyes. Chip was a great dog and was always there with a kiss and a snuggle. He also protected us from strangers and could run like the wind. He leaves behind Teddy, his partner in crime born a week later. Ted is doing the best he can and he’s getting extra snuggle time and walks.

I realized a couple of things during this time. I’d never seen a living being take their last breath. It’s absolutely heartbreaking and haunting. I am relieved that Chip has passed as he was suffering and I know he was trying to be the best dog and rally for me, but I knew he was in pain and his quality of life was bad. I feel guilty for feeling relief, but I tell myself it was the right thing to do.

It occurred to me that I have absolutely wonderful people in my life who are incredibly compassionate and I don’t want anyone in my life that doesn’t have compassion. Jenna, Austin and Promise went with us to the vet and I can’t tell you how much that meant to me, and to Chip. Sydney and Huck spent time with Chip that day, telling him how much he meant to them and what a good boy he was. I told a couple of co-workers and they were so kind and caring. In this crazy world, I just don’t want to settle for people in my life (if I can help it) who don’t have the heart and words to comfort another person (or living being).

We are not promised tomorrow, but I try to love my heart out every day.

Let’s chat soon.

With affection,

Carrie VS