I think if you asked me at almost any point in my life, ”Do you see yourself spending a lot of time in solitude?” I would have given you a solid, "No. Clearly you don’t know me.” When I was young, I dreamt of being Cinderella of sorts – meeting a handsome prince, settling down and having children. My modern version added going to college and getting a job with a stable income. I don’t know why, but I thought that was how my life would be with tiny bumps in the road. Oh my, how my fairy tale has changed! Through my poetry and this blog I give you glimpses into my world for many reasons – this one being that I am becoming more comfortable embracing solitude. I hesitate to say alone as it gives way to one thinking I’m lonely, and I’m not sure that’s always the case, for loneliness is the poverty of self; solitude is the richness of self. – May Sarton
I would ask that you indulge me in this long metaphor to explain how I feel…
I picture myself prepared for my journey, walking on a path. I am capable of taking care of myself and sometimes I am scared, but I know that pain and fear dissipate with the sun rising. I meet people along the path; some are good and some are not, but all walk away, sometimes forever. I am able to visit and re-connect with those I have a deep relationship with if I choose to search for them or they find me, but there are no guarantees. Many nights are spent contemplating things I’ve encountered in my sensitive world, by the light of the moon, sometimes matched with poetry, music and singing. Grief accompanies me often and reassures me she’ll send hope soon, and she does. Storms and hard times are expected, as are joyful moments and dreams I never dared would come true.
I never thought I would be without a mate at this stage of my life. But I have come to a place that while I hope a partner will cross my path, I am becoming comfortable with my solitude. And I do hope our paths cross, dear reader, to share a joyful moment.
I might have studied this state of solitude earlier for there are many wonderful quotes that speak to my heart. Here are a few…
Knowing how to be solitary is central to the art of loving. When we can be alone, we can be with others without using them as a means of escape. – Bell Hooks
In solitude we give passionate attention to our lives, to our memories, to the details around us. – Virginia Woolf
Solitude isn’t loneliness. Solitude is when the entire serene universe seems to surround and hold you quietly. – Victoria Erickson
Delight in meditation and solitude. Compose yourself, be happy. You are a seeker. – Gautama Buddha
It’s your road and yours alone. Others may walk it with you, but no one can walk it for you. – Rumi
Let’s talk again soon.
With affection,
Carrie VS