I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately – this can be good and bad! Sometimes I think too much. It’s tricky to find a balance. My friend mentioned that it’s good to sit with thoughts even for a moment, acknowledge them, and then let them go. I think we’ve all been in situations where we’ve done our level best to avoid thinking about or dealing with it, and it comes at us with a vengeance. One new habit has been journaling daily. I have often bristled at journaling as I don’t want to remember emotional minutia and think, “Oh gosh, why did I feel that way? Ugh, that was stupid.” Rather, I write about topics and observations. In the end, it’s about not thinking too much – just letting my pen write and note what comes through. I know that it will give me fodder for poems to come. It will also work out some of the kinks in my thoughts, bless them, and send them on their way.
Here is a short metaphorical story…I once had a horse named Poncho and we went on a week-long horseback riding/camping trip to the Shawnee National Forest in Shawnee, Illinois. Our goal was to ride through the “one horse gap”. It’s a rock formation that will only allow one horse through at a time (most likely with the rider’s boots on the horse’s neck to get through as was my case). The day came for Poncho and I to traverse the gap. We made it! As we were climbing down the rock formation, there was a deep river that we needed to pass through. I didn’t have much experience with this, but as we stepped into the river, Poncho decided he’d like to cool off. As he started to lay down in the water, I let go of the reins and laid back to float in the water. It was unexpected, but seemed natural at the same time. Of course there was a lot of commotion afterwards, but we were both fine and off we went back to camp.
It reminds me to work with the flow of thoughts; they are just passing through and are not meant to harm, but rather inform. We are best when we are in the flow.
Let’s talk again soon.